11th
You let me down
After weeks of thinking about it, I finally realized why I’m so frustrated and upset. I’ll tell you why I’m angry. What you did was not only stupid, unconsiderate and just plain wrong but it was very disrespectful to me. I fought for you because I trusted you, I wanted to help you in a moment of need, I wanted to be a good friend and you betrayed me. How can I trust you now? How can I feel at ease around you? How do I know that you don’t have a knife ready to stab me in the back? I thought you were strong-minded and smarter than this…I’m so confused that I actually think that you knew what you were doing and selfishly, did it anyway. Now you don’t want to be accountable for your actions, because you want everyone to believe that you had no idea and ask why is this happening to you, as if you were a victim of the situation, when you in fact created “the situation”. Now I realize you have two faces, you keep talking to people telling your side of “the situation” and you act like your life is over when the reality is that you have no regrets about what you did, because while you keep telling people that its over and that nothing happened, everyone knows that you are still doing it, that you keep on lying, that you keep on pretending, that you keep on being fake…Well, “my friend” you are only fooling yourself. Don’t get me wrong I don’t hate you, a part of me still loves you (funny isn’t it?) and the other part of me feels sorry for you. You let me down. I really thought we were good friends and that you at least had respect for me, the kind good friends have for each other…I guess I was wrong.
